Ok so I have been under the weather the last 2 days and home from work, so I figured it was time for a post.
School has started. Bleh. I hate school. Well not so much school, but the getting up at 7 and not coming home from work till 7, then doing homework all night while trying to find time to work out. Joel is working 30 hours a week and taking 16 credits, And still managing to do it happily. I dont get it, he loves school and learning and whatnot (?) Ha I guess thats good though because hes got quite a bit left. I wish I could be more like him.
Ive been feeling kind of weird lately. I dont know what brought it on, but its strange. I guess it anxiousness now that I think about it. I want to be done with school and able to start a family and stay home and cuddle them all day. I want all these things im looking forward to, to be happening now.
Everyone keeps saying these are the best times of your life, and I AM happy, I just wish I could fast forward sometimes. I think most of this is stemming from how UNHAPPY I am at my job. Its a great job, its just stressful and not something I even remotely enjoy. and its depressing to think I have to keep doing it for the next 2 years. Ill have been there for 2 years in October, half way right?
I hear girls who are making dinner everynight and doing all these crafts and projects and Im like, WHO THE CRAP HAS TIME TO DO THAT??? I LOVE being at home and cleaning, and cooking muffins and making my home a comfy, warm place to be, but I feel like I cant do it how I want because of all this other crap. I cant wait until the days of school and work are done for me and I can be a mom and wife full time. I guess ill get there, I just need to be patient.
[This post was supposed to have all the pics and stories from our vacation to Cali, but it just didnt turn out that way, ill post them tomorrow]
I cant resist posting these though, Baby Talon is so cute, and my husband is hot so I have to share :)
After Talons Blessing 8/29/2010
Isnt he adorable??