Attitude

“We can complain because rose bushes have thorns,
or rejoice because thorn bushes have roses.”

I love this quote. I was reminded of it last night when we went up to see Stephanie in the hospital in Idaho Falls. Steph has Gillian Beret sydrome as of last week. She has been laying in the hospital, paralyzed from the nexk down. So last night we went up there to visit because she is finally out of the ICU. I was a little nervous to go to be honest. Not because I didnt want to see her, but because I thought i'd see her laying there and start balling my head off. (my typical response to all things sad) But when we got there Steph had the biggest smile on her face. The whole time we were there she was her normal self, cracking jokes and laughing...She was telling us about all the different times they have to wake her up during the night to change needles, or take vitals, but didnt even complain! She just laughed and said yeah you just learn to sleep through it! I was so impressed by Stephs attitude toward what was happening to her, She truly is an amazing person.

I was telling Joel on the way home, if all I could do is lay in bed (all day) and watch tv I would love it for like the first day, and then I would probably start to get depressed and feel sorry for myself. Steph said she will probably be in the hospital for atleast another 30 days, maybe more than that though. And there was no trace of negativity in her voice, at all! She just looks at everything half full. And I love her for being such a good example to me.

With this whole lawsuit thing going on ive really let myself get down about it, and feel really discouraged. Luckily Joel is more like Stephanie than I am and has really helped me to feel better about the whole situation. He said to me one day when I was being really bratty and sad about it, "Babe the worst that could happen to us is losing some money, Its only Money! Its not going to ruin our lives. We will have chance after chance to make back any money we could lose. Once the case is over, its 100% over and we dont ever have to look back." (good thing I save my texts so I cant get it worded right)

After he said this all of my worries went away. I was being so negative about the whole thing. Thinking, urgh we will lose so much money, urgh my life is over. But I guess thats why I've been blessed with such a wonderful, tender-hearted, loving husband. :)

So Ive decided that I need to be more like my beautifully amazing sister in-law Stephanie, and my awe inspiring husband. I need to stop looking at the situations life presents me with a bad attitude and start being happy and optimistic. I have been given SO much that I take for granted and I am going to start focusing on those things, rather than the bad ones.

And on a side note, Steph has started moving her arms! wahoo!!! Im so proud of her and the progress she's making- she's amazing!